A Very Vivid Dream

I had a dream a couple of nights ago that involved a beautiful gigantic speckled black & white butterfly gracefully soaring over me. Naturally, I was mesmerized. As I moved to take a closer look, the butterfly then suddenly transformed into a gigantic owl. This gigantic owl then proceeded to charge toward & attacked me...After waking up like  I thought about what it could possibly mean. 

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From the little knowledge that I have on butterflies, I know that in dreams they can symbolize transformation. Also, that the larger the butterfly, "the greater impression I will make in a social situation." 

As for the owl...the research I've found so far states that the owl [in the context of my dream] can symbolize someone in my life that has taken keen observation of me or is keeping secrets from me. "In Owl dreams, an Owl suddenly bolting into flight symbolizes that Owls, and people, can be reckless in their pursuit of something." 

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This dream could mean a number of things. As I'm still translating, I'm starting to be more mindful of the company that I keep. Your personal environment is a reflection of what you're putting out or allowing into your life. There may be people around that are not serving you in the healthiest way. Sometimes we need to carefully curate our spaces so that we can give ourselves the breathing room we need to grow and be our best selves. Moving forward, the only kind of relationships that I'm allowing are restorative relationships. I want to feel strengthened and supported by the company that I keep, as I intend to offer the same to them.

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If there's anyone that is more experienced in interpreting dreams, please share your thoughts. I'd love to hear other perspectives on this.

To The One's Who've Broken My Heart...

You've put me through physical, emotional, and psychological pain

Wounds that I've barely allowed to heal

You've ripped my heart out a million times

And I've casually handed it right back to you

Whyyy???

How had I allowed this?

I guess the beauty that I saw in you , I couldn't see in me

And I was blinded from the nastiness that you gave back,

You gifted me only a piece of yourself and I gladly accepted

Because my wide open heart wanted to fill in the cavities of yours

Though...You've taught me a lot

Without you, I wouldn't know that I shouldn't give my heart to just anyone

That I needed to love myself more than I loved you

Without you, I wouldn't know that as tender and fragile as I can be, that at the end of it all I would actually be able to breathe again

From you, I've learned that my significance is not measured by the attention you give.

Or lack there of...

I know that even though my light was dimmed, it still shined brighter than yours

I know that I can not fault you for me not loving myself enough

I've learned that my heart is far more flexible than the credit I give

That without you, I am a million times better

That without you, I am myself again

That without you, I am without grief, doubt, suspicion, insecurity...

Without you I am whole again

You broke my heart so that I could learn how to value it.  

Wash Away

Dress: Express, Necklace: Vintage Lucky Brand, Scarf, Ring, & Bangles: Vintage, Shoes: TopShop, Photography by Larry Everage ( larryeverage.com)

Wash Away

All the grief and the sadness
All the craziness and madness
All the guilt and regrets
All the tricks and losing bets

Wash Away

I cleanse myself of any pain
To make room for future gain
My body will remain
My soul will retain...
My heart will sustain

I'll wash away with all my tears
Any doubt and any fears
Accumulated through the years
My faith never steers
Though my path may switch gears

Wash Away

Let the lessons of my youth
Be the only living proof
That my future has no roof
My past does not define my truth

                                                 Wash Away                                                  

-C.M.Hamilton

Multilayered Ladies

Wardrobe provided by  Saint Claude Social Club (Ig: @saintclaudesocialclub), Photography: Lauren Massey (Ig: @lboots)

To the multilayered ladies...

I love you
You're necessary
Don't let them complicate you
Don't let them abuse your magic
Nevermind the ones who don't understand you
You're not meant for everyone
Don't let them compare you
Don't let them squeeze you into that little box
You don't fit in and that's ok

Your words are like spells
Your thoughts are outlandish
Your mind goes to infinity and beyond
You're the real deal
So real the fake can't even translate
Reality checks in with you

Your layers are thick and hard to peel
No knives can cut through
No tools can unscrew
Don't let them mold you
Don't let their fears hold you
You're the bravest of the brave

You're golden
A diamond in the ruff
A gem
A hidden treasure
Not everyone can see your value
And some that do don't always know what to do

Don't let them tell you you're too much
You are enough
You're more than enough...
You're everything and more
You're more than most..

It's not easy being you, I know
They'll try to bring you down
They'll put thoughts in your head..
"You're difficult" No, you're a challenge
"You're too outspoken" No, you're assertive
"You're unpredictable" No, you're spontaneous
"You're emotionally unstable" NO...you know how to feel

They'll project their insecurities
Try to make you what they want you to be
They'll speak negatively about you
Try to make you the villain
Don't believe the hype
You're what they wish they could be
The brave one
The risk-taker

You're the one someone's been wishing for
You're someone's wildest dream
You're the love of your own life
The joy in your own heart
This world needs more like you
This world needs more
This world needs you
This world is yours...

Don't let them take your world away